Lament Poem

I cried in my car today.

The weight on my shoulders has engulfed me as if it was tucking me into bed.

My life has been distorted into believing that busyness equates success.

In the stillness I can hear you whisper-

But I have been pulled to different directions and

Time is clicking

So I push on,

Ignoring the call to pause.

I cried in my car today.

The overwhelming tempo of life is draining me.

My worries and assignments are piling up higher than any mountain I’ve ever seen.

I cried in my car today.

It was the first time I made an F on an exam, and father, I am so overwhelmed.

These parking lot lights echo my sadness

I cried in my car today.

I cried in chapel today.

I cried at the mention of your name.

Of your faithfulness and how you relentlessly pursue me.

My spirit cries out for you, Lord. I miss you.

When did I forget you were enough? When did I forget that all I ever wanted to do was go dancing with you?

I cried in my car today and you met me there.

Your fragrance laced around me

You welcomed my lamenting chair.

Like Hagar in the wilderness you came in the midst of my distress and saw me.

My mistakes, my failures, my pain and yet you still called me lovely.

You’re my father

my savior

my redeemer.

Let me hear your melodies,

let you interrupt my life and not the world disrupt my time with you.